Maybe it isn't the right fit anymore.

I was a pretty pathetic and miserable drunk, wasn't I?

Okay. You don't have to answer that. We all know the truth.

locked to friends.
I really am sorry, guys. No excuse. Especially not for Shea.

He had reached a new stage in the leaf he was turning, and that was shame; shame for the things he had done and the man he had been because of them.

Things are good, he's adjusting, and he's finding happy; but she's still not there, and he's starting to realize she probably won't be ever again.

It was a year since he'd had sex, he still wanted the next time to be with her, but waiting for the impossible was leaving him with vivid thoughts of all the things he wanted to do to her, and cravings of every inch of her skin beneath his fingers and lips.

(Because I feel like crap, and he is one of the ones that usually gets the brunt of it. Nikki = stork_inscrubs)

"Awake, arise or be forever fallen" ~Paradise LostHe knew he was asking to be found, but he didn't care. Or - maybe he did. Maybe he wanted to be caught ( Read more... )

I don't think I'll get her back. As a friend, or...anything. The thought really makes me want to drink...but I won't. I can handle not drinking.

(Co-written with doc_shea. Takes place roughly 4mos out of rehab.Noah wrapped up the paperwork on his last patient of the day, and stretched, before packing up his things to go home. He was tired, and he really just wanted to go home and crawl into bed. Maybe eat something ( Read more... )

You got a bad reputation//That's the word out on the town//It gives a certain fascination//But it can only bring you downNoah looked at himself in the mirror. His fingers brushed his face as he sighed. He'd been out of rehab for three months. As long as he'd been in. And while those three months inside had felt like eternity, it felt like the ( Read more... )

Adia I do believe I failed you//Adia I know I let you down//don't you know I tried so hard//to love you in my way//it's easy let it go... ~Sarah McLachlanJake had told Noah, via the girls, that she was back. He hadn't known what to make of the fact, except to just nod. His knee didn't stop shaking for the 48 hours before he saw her again ( Read more... )